Yeah. It's also about community, but a different type of community? Like, whenever I'm at raves, we're all there for the music and nobody really gives a fuck who you are or what you look like as long as you're enjoying yourself (and usually fucked out of your mind on x drug of choice buuuut 9___9). It's everyone getting together for the experience of the music.

...why the crap don't I go to more of these? Er. Other than the fact that I'm also secretly a catty bitch and like talking shit at people. Shhhh.

Idk. I'm not super spiritual or anything (like you are :] ) but I guess it definitely could be.

I wish I could say confidence fixes it all. I mean, fuck, it's done wonders for me, yeah and I'm not like cowering in the fucking corner but that doesn't mean I haven't taken my fair share of violence and shit (and probably then some) because of the way I present. Fuck knows how many black eyes I got when I was still IDing as a woman because they "thought I was a real girl" and whatever. Whatever the fuck that means. Even being confident I still get verbal abuse thrown at me everyfuckingwhere. Like, cannot walk down the street half the time. Just learned how to give it right back or ignore it. And pick and choose more carefully who I take home at the end of the night. :/

Ela keeps saying I should learn to throw a punch but it's just not something I've ever really been able to do. She's the violent one. I'm just pretty. ;P