geishadeconstruct: (:: why I need this automation)
Heyyyyy babies~

I know, it's been fucking forever. A loooot of shit has gone down and ummm basically my life is kind of shit right now and fucking has been for a goddamn long time. I've fucking lost my job (though there's some legal shit I'm dealing with wrt that and I might not actually? Complicateddd~) and Lia and pretty much any fucking control I've ever had on anything. Back on meds and in therapy (nooot that I was really out of it before I was just really bad about going? >___>;;haa) baaaasically by force because otherwise I woulda lost Mimi and I don't know if I could've fucking dealt with that. Sooo. Yyyyep! That's what's happening. Fucking wonderful.

At least Ela's still around and like. Idk I guess putting up with me. Even if she was the one who fucking betrayed me to the police and had me dragged off to an institution. Like. I can't. Everyone keeps saying "oh you'll forgive her, you'll see it was better this way" but I guess I'm not to that point yet, you know? But she's still like, sticking by me. Which is good I guess, unless she's just doing it to watch me and make sure I don't fuck up again.

Let's be real here, I'm probly gonna fuck up again. I mean, we know me, right?

I miss my fucking house. I feel so goddamn exposed in this one.

Idk when I'll be back but hopefully shit'll be better because fuck, my life has been depressing as balls lately and there's no point in writing about it for everyone to see. Idk babies leave me happy things? :( I'll give you gifs in return even if I don't have the ol collection anymore?

ETA luuuuulz I was totally going to post a gif into this but I can't even upload shit to the internet correctly anymore so fuck youuu tooooo, life. (.______.)
geishadeconstruct: (:: won't you love me? reconstruct me?)
Soooo this was supposed to be a 30 day challenge whatever buuuut the person I stole it from cut out some questions and posted it all at once ad I couldn't find the actual source. And I WAS just gonna do a short 25 day version but then I sat down and answered all the questions all at once, so it seems kinda like, pointless to post them in tiny bits? XD Soo yeah.

I'll be nice though and use a cut 9__9 )
geishadeconstruct: (:: nothing but a fake disguise)
Sooooo omg.

The fourth. Was. Awesome. And I like totally forgot that I posted that thing with my phone last night. >____> Haaaa~

There are still people here, which is a little weird and I think I'm gonna kick them out soon but whatever, it's not like they can get into the parts of the house that actually matter and the rest of the place is like TRASHED right now. 9___9

Skylar's using a cut, this gon' be good )

Now I am going to take a motherfucking shower because I am still death warmed over and I need to feel like a person again. Ugh.

Oh god you guys I didn't even put any images in this. I will have to do a picspam at some point to make up for this WALL OF TEXT I just threw at you.
geishadeconstruct: (:: flesh is false - nothing's real)
So I wasn't really going to air this right away or anything but I also wasn't expecting a fucking email from the administration of Mimi's school misgendering me again even though we've been dealing with these guys for four fucking years already and they know that I'm not her father.

Of all the reasons I'm a terrible parent, my gender does not even enter into the equation. Not on the fucking list.


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January 2013



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